She sits, cocooned from a pandemic in her perfect tiny garden, trying to write. She can hear that the roads are busier, when they shouldn’t be. The swifts scream against a soundtrack of rumbles and an occasional toot. Isolated for weeks, no train commute snippets of gossip to inspire, no espresso scented mornings spent people watching, she is bereft of ideas. She skims through uninspiring words she can’t remember penning, written a lifetime ago in notebooks bought for their beautiful covers. Idly presses the refresh button on random word generator sites. Makes another pot of tea.
She sits, cocooned from a pandemic in her perfect tiny garden, writing words she knows are going nowhere, words nobody will ever read. There is more traffic than last time she went out, an almost constant thrum now, spewing particulates into the cleaner air. Next door are video-conferencing relatives, excited voices, baby’s squawks, and laughs spilling from an open window. Somewhere, possibly in eastern Europe, or maybe just a couple of miles away, a grandmother stretches a hand towards a screen baby’s face, one she hasn’t touched for weeks.
She sits, cocooned from a pandemic in her perfect tiny garden, trying to write. Next door’s cat walks purposefully along the fence, drops from view. A stream of motorcycles, going somewhere they probably shouldn’t be, drowns the pigeons’ my toe bleeds calls. She watches a cluster of bees buzz around the rock rose that has waited three years to unleash an explosion of poached egg blooms, sees that her potted-on geraniums are droopy, busies herself with watering cans. Next door’s baby cries, there are goodbyes and kisses blown against laptop screens. She thinks he must be teething – when she wakes in the night, sometimes she hears his screams.
She sits, cocooned from a pandemic in her perfect tiny garden, trying to write. Above, aeroplanes fly in formation, spilling red, white, and blue smoke in the sky. The noise is deafening. She can’t remember the last time she saw a plane, wonders if she’ll ever board one again. She thinks about writing about travelling, scrolls through snaps on her phone, rummages through bookcases for Time Out guides and phrase books. When she goes back to her notebook, next door, the other side, the guys with the dog and no baby, are lighting their barbecue. Smoke drifts into her perfect tiny garden.
She sits, cocooned from a pandemic in her perfect tiny garden, trying to write, trying to think of words that aren’t lockdown, isolate, test, protective, death. The scent of char-grilled meat hangs in the air. A siren wails from the street, making the dog bark. A rattle signals the cat, paws hanging over her gate, ambling along the fence. Somewhere nearby a radio plays Land of Hope and Glory. She imagines the inspiration of a famous victory, a foe vanquished.
She sits, cocooned from a pandemic in her perfect tiny garden, trying to write, battling the invisible enemy rendering her wordless.
Many thanks to Lockdown Babybabble for publishing this little piece of creative non-fiction today!
https://lockdownbabybabble.wordpress.com/2020/09/12/fiction-cocooned-anne-howkins/
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